I wanted to get my hands on his phone.
Later that night, with Katie asleep, I confronted Sam.
The air between us crackled with tension, heavy with the accusations I had thrown at him.
Sam sat with his hands on his head.
"How could you?" my voice broke.
Sam winced, the guilt etched deep in his features.
"Kristen, I made a mistake. It was just a bad decision. And it meant absolutely nothing, I swear."
"Sam, a mistake is when you forget to get milk. Not when you choose to have an affair with someone, and then create an entire life with them!" I spat out, the bitterness coating my tongue.
He reached out, but I recoiled.
"Please, honey," he said. "I'll do anything to fix this!"
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"How, Sam? How can you possibly fix this?"
Tears streamed down my face.
"Did you know that I was going to talk to you about considering having another baby?" I asked.
I wanted to hurt him. I wanted him to feel how I was feeling — lost, betrayed, hurt beyond repair.
The next day, I took Katie to my mother-in-law's house, hoping that she would tell me more because Sam had refused to speak to me when I mentioned thinking about another baby.
"How did you find out?" Gloria asked. "Did he finally tell you?"
"Katie did," I said.
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Katie ran into the living room and put the TV on — which suited me just fine. I had questions for Gloria.
"Katie overheard you and Sam talking yesterday," I confessed. "But I had no idea that anything was going on with him. He always made it seem that work was taking all his time."
"I only found out recently," Gloria said. "I told him that he needed to tell you the truth. And that I would give him the opportunity to do so — if not I was going to tell you myself."
"Do you know who she is?" I asked.
Gloria shook her head as she filled the kettle.
"I don't know the details. He just told me that she was pregnant and he didn't know what to do."
"What do you think we should do?" I asked.
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"Honey, when Sam's father had his affair, I divorced him. I'm not saying that you should do the same. But I am saying that some betrayals are just too deep. I know he's my son. And that I should be supporting him. But when he told me — all I could think about was when I saw my husband with his mistress, and her big belly."
I wondered what Gloria was telling me, whether there was some hidden message to her words.
"What about Katie?" I asked, desperate for advice. "She doesn't know anything specific. To her understanding, I'm the one having the baby."
"Put your child first, Kristen, by all means. But just remember that you'll have to live with the consequences, too."
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We drove in silence, Katie looking out the window at the sunset.
When we got home, I sat at the kitchen table lost in thought — I didn't know what the next move should be.
My love for Sam had died the moment he admitted the truth. Would it be the worst thing for our marriage to end, too? It felt over. He had sought solace outside of our marriage.
Katie climbed onto my lap, wrapping her tiny arms around me.
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"Mommy, don't be sad," she said. "I love you a hundred, thousand, million."
I sighed, holding onto her tightly.
It was Katie's innocence that had unveiled the bitter truth, but it was also her love that reminded me of my strength. With her by my side, I knew that I could face the uncertain future with Sam.
It was time for a new beginning for Katie and myself.
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