I have toxic parents, but that isn't the biggest issue in our relationship; it's that when they're not being Absolute F*cking Horrors (TM), my toxic parents and I do manage to have fun, and I'd like to keep having a relationship with them. How the hell does that work? How do I keep the Absolute F*cking Horror behavior at its absolute minimum, give their best qualities a time to shine, and still get whatever I possibly can out of a very flawed, deeply weird parent-child relationship? Reader, I'll be honest: I'm still figuring it out. But there are good ways and bad ways to pursue a relationship with toxic parents, and in the course of attempting to pursue a relationship in the good way with my parents, I've collected some tips.
As far as toxicity goes, there are many degrees and types. As ever, Susan Forward's seminal work on toxic parents is required reading if you think you may have some. But some toxic relationships are more salvageable in adulthood than others. Abuse, emotional bludgeoning, control and boundary problems come in all shapes and sizes, and the more serious they are, the less likely you'll be able to eke out a decent relationship with the parent(s) who did these things to you. There's absolutely nothing wrong with deciding that having no contact with your toxic parents is for you. But if you do want to have interactions and try to make sure that they are fulfilling and positive ones, there are ways to try and make it work.
But whatever you do, do not expect sunshine and rainbows. Toxicity is a long-term and deeply entrenched problem, and you've been part of this toxic dynamic for a very long time; it's expected that there will be some very rough periods. But if you want to build (or rebuild) a relationship, here are a few bits of advice.
1. Limit Their Opportunities To Be Toxic To You
What gives your parents the fewest possible opportunities to act out their negative dynamic with you? A public place? The presence of many witnesses (like a partner or other family members)? A Skype call where the time is limited by outside factors, like that you have to leave in 10 minutes to go to work? A set, specific activity where they can't easily be assholes? Don't feel bad for insisting on a specific situation; you want to get the best out of the experience, so you have to make sure it's going to give the best results. Think of it all as putting down the safety bar as you board the roller coaster.
So put yourself in charge of scheduling your activities with your toxic parents, and don't leave it open-ended. If you have to enter "their territory" (i.e. their house or other places they consider their turf) for holidays or whatever, do your best to mediate the entire experience so you have the power to leave at any time, and do whatever you can to organize things so that your parents have as little opportunity as possible to get awful.
2. Engage In Very Defined Activities With Specific Time Limits